That seven-letter word

Are they always supposed to be right?

There are times when I argue with my mom because of several stuff. It could be as shallow as burning the pizza, and as serious as something else. But whenever I just try to tell her that she was the wrong one, the heat comes up and I just find myself talking back and giving her answers and pointing out that she should not blame me, instead, she should think that it's also her fault. Then my Dad will think that I don't have respect for my mother.

Seriously? Just because I stand up for myself, and for what I believe is right or wrong, it does not mean that I have no respect over someone I'm dealing with.

The problem with me and my mom is that we're both never wrong, specially her. She always thinks that what she say is right. If something bad happens, the blame goes to anyone but her. I can never win, no one can.

It is just unfair.

Sometimes, she also has to admit that she is wrong. That this time, I was right about something. That she can't always blame anyone even if she is at fault.

Yes, she is my mother, but that does not give her any reason to always put the blame on me and make me seem to be the renegade daughter.

All of us has to earn the respect we want from the people around us. It's just a give and take process. Simple as that.

EFFECTS OF KISSING

1. Long kisses are beneficial to our circulatory system. When kissing, our pulse rate is quickening up to 110 beats per minute. This is a great training for our cardiovascular system.
2. After kissing, the lungs work harder, resulting in 60 inhales per minute compared to regular 20 inhales. Such “ventilation” is a good preventive measure against lung diseases.
3. Some dentists believe that kissing is a preventive measure against dental caries. Indeed, kissing stimulates the flow of saliva that eliminates acid coat on the teeth.
4. Kisses that last more than three minutes help us fight stress and its effects. Long kisses trigger the chain of biochemical reactions, which destroys stress hormones.
5. Those who kiss their partner goodbye each morning live five years longer than those who don’t.
6. Kissing is great for self-esteem. It makes you feel appreciated and helps your state of mind.
7. Kissing burns calories, 2-3 calories a minute and can double your metabolic rate. Research claims that three passionate kisses a day (at least lasting 20 seconds each) will cause you to loose an entire extra pound.
8. Kissing is a known stress-reliever. Passionate kissing relieves tension, reduces negative energy and produces a sense of well being, lowering your cortisol ‘stress’ hormone.
9. Kissing uses 30 facial muscles and it helps keep the facial muscles tight, preventing baggy cheeks! The tension in the muscles caused by a passionate kiss helps smooth the skin and increases the circulation.
10. Kissing is good for the heart, as it creates an adrenaline which causes your heart to pump more blood around your body. Frequent kissing has scientifically been proven to stabilize cardiovascular activity, decrease blood pressure and cholesterol.
11. Those who kiss quite frequently are less likely to suffer from stomach, bladder and blood infections.
12. During a kiss, natural antibiotics are secreted in the saliva. Also, the saliva contains a type of anesthetic that helps relieve pain.
13. Kissing reduces anxiety and stops the ‘noise’ in your mind. It increases the levels of oxytocin, an extremely calming hormone that produces a feeling of peace.

SUPER MEGA FRIENDS. :)

I just had one great day with the two of my closest friends everrr. Hahaha! :) We had so much fun. All we did the entire day is laugh out real loud cause the three of us never fail to say something stupid or funny or ironically witty. :))

I love these two.

"Last Christmas, I gave you my heart. But the very next day, you gave it away. This year, to save me from tears, I'll give it to someone special."

I keep on singing this song unintentionally. As if it's really what me heart wants to say out loud. Maybe it's because it tells exactly what I'm feeling right now.

The previous month was indeed one of my saddest times of all. I felt lonely with my family away from me. I fell in love a couple of times, but neither of the two made me feel what I was supposed to feel.

This year, I'm hoping that I would be more careful as to who I give my heart to. I'm hoping that it'll be the right time for me to really be loved in return. It's been a while since I last felt deeply and madly in love to someone.

I don't know if I'm ready to give my heart to someone else this year, but we'll see.

Why do I always check his profile though I've already deleted him from my list? Whenever I log in, I never fail to check his page though I know there will never be anything about me. I'll just see posts about how happy he is with his girlfriend and how in love they are with each other. Why am I doing this to myself?

I forgot to write a blog entry yesterday, too bad. Maybe I was too amazed by the dream I had. It felt really great. I didn't wake up in the middle of the night. I slept so well.

But it also made me realize, when am I really going to meet the guy who could make me feel that way? Someone whom I could cuddle each morning I wake up. Someone who kisses me whenever he feels like doing it. Someone who makes me smile randomly.

I haven't been in a relationship for quite some time now cause I have convinced my self that I'm not really searching to be in any as of the moment. I'm not into committing myself to someone yet. But I do like the feeling of having someone. It's ironic, but it's true.

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I'll stop typing now. Will perhaps share more later evening.

Do you ever have this feeling of wanting to undo things from yesterday--like clicking the undo button on MS Word when you had a mistake?

How I wish life is just as easy as that. You can select which actions you wouldn't want to have done. You can go back and delete. But too bad. It doesn't work that way.

No matter how many times you wish to undo something, you just can't.

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Sorry. I can't write anything nice right now. I feel sick.

UNFRIEND

Guess what I just did? I deleted him from my list of friends.

Maybe it's for me to finally be over him and avoid any more hurting. Cause the more I see him online and see his profile, the more I feel bad about the situation.

I thought I was over it and I can deal with it. But I don't know. There's just something about him that keeps on pulling me towards him. Something very weird and unexplainable. But this is enough. I can't be like this for so long. I have to accept it and move on.

This time, I have to make sure that I will not take back my action and fold up. I can do this. I know I can.

APPOINTMENT WITH GOD

When does a person say that he's had enough? That he just want to give up?

I just had a weird conversation with a friend who happens to be my ex-boyfriend. He started saying nice things about me. He gave me different advices, random thoughts, and words of wisdom as if he's going to die. Though he didn't say it directly, I knew what he meant when he said he was "going somewhere far where there'd be no facebook".

I kept on telling him, he shouldn't leave. That he has no right to take his life. I even remember telling him:

"Si God, hindi tumatanggap ng walk-in applicants, puro by appointment. (God does not accept walk-in applicants, it's always by appointment.)"

It's a mortal sin to commit suicide. And it's more appropriate to die naturally, in God's time.

I kept on telling him to stay and be strong. He says things that he could actually have told himself. If only there's a mirror, I'd place it in front of him while he was saying all those stuffs.

I've been in the same situation before. When I wanted to give up cause I thought I can't bear it anymore--with all the problems and hurting. I thought it's better if I just die and escape life. But no. Now I realize that it's a silly thing to even think about it.

That only meant that my relationship with God was not as strong as I can say it is now. Cause if it was, then I would have just prayed hard instead of assuming I was hopeless.

In my twenty years of living, I have learned a lot. I've been lost but I've also found my way back to what is right in God's eyes. I may be weak, but I have a God that I can hold onto now. He will never forsake us and will never make us go through anything we can't handle very well. He's there, guiding us.

Just when we thought we should just give up, we should just close our eyes and find Him deep within.