LAST DAY OF 2010

Today's the 31st of December and the year's almost over. I woke up early having a hard time getting up and I was just staring at the ceiling until I fell asleep again and again and again.

When I was staring at the ceiling, I have different thoughts on my mind: the boy I was talking about on my last entries, my family being away from me, and finally, me being with them this coming year. I was imagining my self talking to my relatives here in the Philippines while we're video calling on Yahoo! Messenger. I imagined my self being in that small box on the screen with my brother laughing and smiling. I imagined my self meeting my other relatives and cousins in Australia. I imagined things that are not located where I am right now. Away.

I'm getting all determined and sure about what I really want: I want to be with my family. This 2010, it was still a vague idea for me. I said I liked going to Australia but it seems like I didn't really mean what I said. But this time, it's the other way around.

I will be leaving this 2011 to be with my family. I will be leaving a lot of people that had great impact in my life. But it's part of it. We'll see each other after a long time, when they already have their own family, while we're on a vacation maybe. I don't know. There's a lot of ways on going back to where I came from. But there's only one shot on being with my family in Australia for good.

I hope God hasn't gotten tired of me yet. I hope His patience is as long as it can possibly be. I still hope. I am still hoping.

My life will be different this 2011, and I mean it. I will travel places. I will be doing the things I love to do. I will see new faces and meet new friends. I will have a new life, a better life. And this time, I'm going to live it the way it's supposed to be in God's way.

REALITY

Life can never be very giving to all of us at once. Sometimes, it's one at a time. Like being in a queue, it may test your patience, your determination, your perseverance, your will. The more difficult your experience is, the more worthy it becomes. You just have to hold on.

Remember, one stone thrown at you should not make you stumble. But if it does, you should still have the guts the stand up again. Little by little, slowly but surely, things like this will help you become a better and stronger person. You may not know it, but the next time you experience something similar to your previous troubles, you would be able to handle it with less effort unlike the first time you had it.

Life's about being hurt and being able to recover and live again. It's about being strong despite all the obstacles you may have to face along the way. It's a cycle. Continues and never ending. So we should just get used to it and realize that someday, we'll finally have our turn.