Why do I always check his profile though I've already deleted him from my list? Whenever I log in, I never fail to check his page though I know there will never be anything about me. I'll just see posts about how happy he is with his girlfriend and how in love they are with each other. Why am I doing this to myself?

I forgot to write a blog entry yesterday, too bad. Maybe I was too amazed by the dream I had. It felt really great. I didn't wake up in the middle of the night. I slept so well.

But it also made me realize, when am I really going to meet the guy who could make me feel that way? Someone whom I could cuddle each morning I wake up. Someone who kisses me whenever he feels like doing it. Someone who makes me smile randomly.

I haven't been in a relationship for quite some time now cause I have convinced my self that I'm not really searching to be in any as of the moment. I'm not into committing myself to someone yet. But I do like the feeling of having someone. It's ironic, but it's true.

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I'll stop typing now. Will perhaps share more later evening.