CATS Now and Forever

CATS Now and Forever

With Lea Salonga as Grizabella

Music by Andrew Lloyd Webber
Based on “Old Possum’s Book of Practical Cats” by T. S. Eliot

Performances starting July 24
For a strictly limited season
Tanghalang Nicanor Abelardo, CCP

Ticket Prices:

Matinee
SAT (3:00pm)
SUN (2:30pm)
PhP7000 PhP5000 PhP3500 PhP2000 PhP1000

Evenings
TUE, WED, THU (8:00pm)
SUN (7:30pm)
PhP6000 PhP4500 PhP3000 PhP1500 PhP750

Evenings
FRI, SAT (8:00pm)
PhP7000 PhP5000 PhP3500 PhP2000 Php1000

Ticket Prices are exclusive of Ticketworld fees.

SHOW DATES (as of April 2010)
SAT July 24 Matinee
SAT July 24 Evening
SUN July 25 Matinee
SUN July 25 Evening
TUE July 27 Evening
WED July 28 Evening
THU July 29 Evening
FRI July 30 Evening
SAT July 31 Matinee
SAT July 31 Evening
SUN August 1 Matinee
SUN August 1 Evening
TUE August 3 Evening
WED August 4 Evening
THU August 5 Evening
FRI August 6 Evening
SAT August 7 Matinee
SAT August 7 Evening
SUN August 8 Matinee
SUN August 8 Evening
TUE August 10 Evening
WED August 11 Evening
THU August 12 Evening
FRI August 13 Evening
SAT August 14 Matinee
SAT August 14 Evening
SUN August 15 Matinee
SUN August 15 Evening

For more info:
FB page (http://facebook.com/catsinmanila)
Tumblr page (http://catsinmanila.tumblr.com)

I wish I can watch this. Lea Salonga is the reason why I liked singing. :)

Why do I deserve an Android phone?

Dear Reader,

Habang nilagay ko sa google ang katagang 'promo philippines', lumitaw ang samu't-saring mga results. Pero may isa dun na talagang naging curious ako: "Im giving away an Android Phone!"

Naexcite ako, at agad kong binasa ang nilalaman. Tinignan ang mga litrato. Napaisip ako:

"Wow. Ang yaman naman ng isang 'to. May HTC na, may Blackberry pa. At take note, ipapamigay pa ang isang samsung phone na meron daw Android OS. Pero siguro, mabait lang talaga siya at hindi selfish."

Pero teka, bago ako tumuloy sa blog na 'to. May isang tanong muna ako:






Ano ba kasi yung 'Android' phone? (FAIL, I know.)

Seryoso, nung una, wala akong kaide-ideya kung ano ba yun. Ang alam ko na lang na Android e yung kalaban nina Son Goku sa Dragonball Z. Salamat sa internet at pwedeng pwedeng i-google kung ano ba talaga yun. :)) Tsaka ko nalaman na operating system pala ng cellphone yun kagaya ng Symbian at iba pa.


Sa parteng ito, siguro naman nahahalata mo na kung bakit ko ngayon gustong magkaroon ng kagaya nun. Hindi naman para maging kagaya nung mga Android sa Dragonball Z na may powers, pero pwede na rin kasi ang cool nila. Parang, kapag may Android phone ka, ang cool mo na din diba?

Gusto kong magkaroon ng phone na kagaya nun dahil kapag nagka-Android phone na ako... hindi na ako magiging inosente na hindi lang pala Dragonball Z ang may kinalaman android. Hahaha!

Gusto kong magkaroon ng phone na kagaya nun dahil hindi naman ako yung tao na bibili ng isang mamahaling gamit. Iipunin ko na lang yun para ipambayad sa tuition ko kung sakali. Praktikal lang. :)

Kaya ngayon, masasabi ko na talagang dahil sa pagiging curious, inosente at totoo sa kung ano talaga ang nasa isip ko at gusto kong sabihin, masasabi kong "I deserve an Android phone".

PS
Sino pa ang unang maniniwalang deserving ako? Walang iba kundi ang sarili ko lang, diba?

Soc.Psych Journal#1

Again, it's been a while since my last post. :|

Can't really manage to write a blog so often. *sigh*

Now here's a blog entry for my weekly Social Psychology Journal.

------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

To: mpapsych_arel@yahoo.com.ph
Subject: Journal (Psych5, Social Psychology)

Date: July 04, 2010.
Name: Narciso, Jeralyn Ritchelle C.
Topic/Lesson: Introduction to Social Psychology
Time: 2:30-5:30 P.M.

------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

Journal #1.

Dear Reader,

Last Monday, we've finally met our Social Psychology professor. She was nice and I could say that she really knows what she's saying in front of the class. :)

The lesson focused on what Social Psychology is and some other factors related to it.

The class began with an introduction from all of us. Little did I know that she was already trying to observe our behavior and actually testing how we socialize. That's how she started relating the lesson to us.

I've learned that Social Psychology studies how we think about, influence and relate to one another. It's also an investigation on how individuals affect each other.

Aside from the technical meaning of Social Psychology, she also explained first impressions and the importance of it. Just like in an example she has cited, we should be careful on how we make an impression during a job interview. I agree, especially if there are hundreds of other applicants. We must try our best to make a positive impact.

Speaking of impressions, she made an activity for the class as well. She asked us to rate how we think about her in different aspects. On some, we based our answers using our impression of her. By the end of the activity, most of us had scores in the middle since we kind of played safe in answering the items. This only proved that there are really things we will only know once we get to spend some time with that person and know him/her better.

She also made me realize how being observant and analytic in a situation really make a difference. By giving more effort of observing what's happening around you, you can make better judgments and decisions.

The initial topic was really interesting. I hope the next ones would be the same way too. :)

That's all for now, Reader. I'm getting kind of sleepy now.

- Jeralyn Ritchelle C. Narciso aka Jelly

TEEN CLASH

Watch live video from mskyukai on Justin.tv

Sickness Galore. :|

I really hate being SICK. Redundant, I know.. But I'd say that I'm sick of getting sick.

My golly. I've been sick for like 2 weeks straight now. Me hates it soooo much. And because of this I really cant go back to work anymore. Gaaah.

Anywaaaay.

Back to being a normal college-teen-student-dubber-life.

Somehow I missed it, but at times I also miss my work. I miss talking to random people. I miss loooong hours of being over the phone. And most of all, I miss the people--or let's say some people I work with. I miss Team Lemon. I miss Daddy Atong. Etc. Etc.

Well, like what my Dad told me. Health is wealth. If I'm already getting sick, I really should quit whatever makes me sick.

I know, I'll miss that high salary. Those times that I can just easily buy what I want.. and go to different places I'd like. *SIGH*

..

..

Well, that's life. I guess I'd just have to look at the brighter side of life. Perhaps there's more to what I had. Maybe I have something better ahead of me. Think positive. :)

Aaaaaand. About this sickness, I sure hope that I'll be getting well real soon. I hate it. (Who does not, anyway?) =))

RANDOM THOUGHTS~

I want to make a song again, but whenever I try to, I fail. I can write the words, but that's just it. A song isn't a song if there's no melody, right? It's just considered a poem. :(


I get sick so often lately, and this isn't right. :


If only I can turn back time, I'd rather not meet you. You're one of my biggest mistakes.


You're the reason I can't sleep. You give me nightmares even if I'm wide awake.


I miss going to school. I miss my friends. I miss everything I was doing before I got this job.


Am I really gonna quit this time?


I want to go somewhere else and start a new life.

Q1 Changes. :D

Haha. Im just in the middle of the year's first quarter. It's been a while (again) since I last posted.

Anyway, I have a lot to share to you.

So far, I like the start of the year. :)

Let's talk about work. Hmm. I got my 'one time big time' incentive last January so I got P13,500 bonus aside from my regular salary. Believe it or not, I haven't spend that money yet. :)

I'm hoping that I will also be promoted sooner or later. It's kind of difficult to maintain my KPI--now that our account is really getting so demanding. So, I really hope so. I'm praying. *Crosses fingers*

And so far, officemates are still fine. Some people had an impact, some are still the same. But I can only say a thing: people do change.

Speaking of people, I also met few new friends. And I also had some time to catch up with my old ones. And I had time to fall in and out of love again.

Unfortunately, there were ups and downs when it comes to love and life itself. I really realized that you can't make someone fall for you because it's just going a decision which is his to make. You also won't know if he really likes you or what. Love is going to be very vague at firs. Like what I always say, it makes my world go topsy-turvy. But why can't I ever learn? Well I guess I'd have to deal with it. People come and go. Others may leave a mark, others may just be a face to remember.

Real men can be counted in a hand.

FELIZ NAVIDAD! :)

Hola. Just dropped by to say Merry Christmas! :)

It's already Christmas eve. :)

And guess what? Haven't mentioned it yet, but I already bought a new guitar. :D She's AVI. And I really REALLY like her.. ALOT! :D

More blessings to come. :D Thanks Lord. :)

Happy birthday Jesus. :)

HOLLA. :)

Hey. What's up?

I just felt like blogging. Hmm. Lately, I've been having this hesitation about that same guy this blog has been talking about lately. I was thinking if.. I could just let everything be and be back to what we were before. But, I don't know. I just really don't. I feel like I don't want to have any other attachments to him anymore. Perhaps we can just be plain friends. Period.

I know I'm doing the right thing. I just feel it.

Anyway, enough about him.

Hey! I want to buy a guitar! For real. I want to buy that as a christmas gift for myself. haha! I don't know why but I just get excited for the 25th.

Well, I hope y'all have a MERRY MERRY CHRISTMAS FELLAS. :)

Oh so LOVE December. :)

Hey, what's up?

I haven't blogged for quite a long time huh? :))

Been busy lately. You know what I mean. :))

Soooo.

Time to spill.

Mom just went back to Australia a couple of days ago. By now she's already enjoying her vacation..AGAIN. :))

And you know what? I just had a very, VERY good feeling for december. :D

Wanna know why? Cause all my hard work is paying off. :D God is giving me a lot of blessings that I can't just simply thank him for.

I gave my SE phone to my bro and bought a new one. :)

I have A WHOLE LOT of money from my own pocket now. :D (But of course, I would not intend to have all those spent with non sense stuffs)

and lastly...

IT'S CHRISTMAS TIME! :D

That means Christmas shopping! :D

Just can't wait.

PS--

Thank you Lord. :)

SUDDEN SADNESS~

I'm just surfing the net.

Then..

I remembered my best friends Rachelle and Nico.

RACHELLE -- let's talk about her first.

She's no longer using Fs. And the last time I texted her, her reply is: "Who are you? Don't text me anymore."

I replied. But she didn't. Now I'm still asking myself why.

NICO -- my guy best friend.

I was also texting him. But it was months ago since we had a real conversation.

We had plans of going out. But none of those happened.






Now I'm wondering. They're my best friends. But WHY can't I feel their presence?
Are we still what I think we are? :|
Or am I just the only one left in that memory.





This gave me a sudden feeling of sadness. I feel like crying. Something inside me wants to shout out loud and burst out of tears.

ABANDONMENT.

That's what I'm feeling again. I don't know. I just really don't. I want to keep our communications. I want to see them. But do they? :(

19TH OF OCTOBER

I HATE IT.

I just hate it every time I catch a cold. I'll be okay if I have a fever but it's a big no-no for cough or cold.

Ugh. I also hate drinking meds. Gaaaah.

**remembers something**

We'll be moving to a different house. --sigh.

SO THIS IS HOW IT FEELS

OCTOBER 09 2009

3 missed calls.

October 10 2009 :

2:30 am | Office

I woke up. Checked my phone. There were 3 missed calls from my mom.

I asked her why she's calling me. She didn't replied that fast.

Then I already started to take in calls. During the middle of a call, I got her response.

..

..

..

Then all of a sudden, I felt the coldness all through out my body. SHIVER. BLANK.

She told me there was a landslide in Baguio, and that YANA died.

YANA is like my little sister. She's only around 8-10. She's very sweet, yet snobbish. I like her. Really.

I CAN'T BELIEVE IT. I DON'T WANT TO BELIEVE IT.

But it's true. She's gone. I haven't gotten a chance to even see her for the last time cause we can't go to Baguio.

I just cried everytime I remember what happened. She's not related to me. I'm not her real sister. But I felt like I've lost a family member.

Then, I realized. This is how it feels.

It sucks. I don't like it.

DO I HAVE A CHOICE?

Lately, I've been feeling so confused.

Yea, what's new?

Suddenly, I don't feel like going to school anymore. I wanna shift to another course. But if I change my course, I'm going to be a freshman stud.. AGAIN. That'll be my third time in case. Imagine, I was supposed to be in my junior year now, but this is what happened.

I want to take up mass communication again. But can I handle the hectic schedule? I DON'T KNOW.

If not mass communication, I would then choose any computer course. But, I'll be back on being a first year by then.

Do I have a choice?

My mom insists that I won't be graduating here. Cause we'll be going somewhere else -- and that I'll finish my studies there.. somewhere down below.

Do I want to be there and repeat all over?

Do I have a choice?

I want to finish my studies. I really want to. But I want to do I want. I want to finish taking up a course that I love.

I want to be able to do what I do best.

Do I have a choice?

I don't think so.

DISASTER STRIKES~

It's been almost 4 days now since the storm made a drastic effect in our place. Yes. Drastic.

No lights. Unbelievable water level. Unbearable heat.

I really can't imagine that our house will be flooded that way, and even in our office -- total disaster. :|

I'm wondering, when will everything be back to normal?

IT"S NOT ABOUT YOU

I feel so bad,
my eyes are teary
and I can barely see.

Thoughts keep running
through my head
as I lay on my bed.

I keep on searching
not for him
but for another thing.

Yes, it's not him that
I'm looking for
anymore.

Aha! There you are,
my precious one,
my black guitar.

NOT ANOTHER MISTAKE.

Still remember the guy that I've mentioned in this blog site? Well that's a part of the past now. We've broken up last month -- before we even had our 5th month celebration. So what went wrong?

Everything was going on smoothly, I love how he cares about me. I just simply love being with him too. Little by little he has changed compared to what he was before. He became better. Our relationship grew. But for no reason at all, I started to fall out of love. Wait, scrub that off. Maybe there really is a reason. Then I've searched for it, thought about it, and knew what made me feel that way.

INGENUITY. That's one reason. I felt like I was not wanted but merely needed. Also, I really can't forget the time when he did something that really bothered me. That's not just plain jealousy I felt, but I also felt disrespected. Knowing that I'm there, in front of them -- he still did it. That's when I started to fall out. I tried to forget about it, but I just simply can't.

Then. We broke up.

Out of nowhere, I texted him that we're done. He was shocked, to the point that he really don't agree with what I've decided. I even talked to him in person just to officially end it up.

And that's it. End of the story.

I thought he was the one I've been waiting for all of my life. I felt a different kind of love. So different that it's not actually true.

Then, I met a guy from our office. I got interested in him and started to like him. A lot happened. And I don't know if I just did the same mistake again like what I did before. We talked everything over til we felt mutual for each other -- or at least that's what I thought.

Almost everyday we're together. He finds ways just to be with me. And we've been like this for more than a month now. All his actions, sweet nothings made me fall for him. But I did not know that's just it. He's not willing to go any further yet. He's not ready, that's what he says.

Then one day, I just felt different. I was longing for security. I was longing for assurance. But I know I should not demand anything from him. That's just not right. But it's just sad to know that though he can give me all the love and care in the world, he just can't give me anything to hold on to. I don't even have his word. He's just scared to even take any risk at the moment, and that's just what disappoints me. It's sad to know that the one you love can't try to be brave and get over with his past and try to move on..with you. Why can't he stand up on his knees and try to move forward? Why does he have to predict what can happen in the future? Can't he just go with the flow and just let things happen as it is?

He say he's not ready. But when will he be? By the time that I've fallen for someone else? What's the difference between tomorrow and now? I can understand him if we've just known each other for days. Well, perhaps he just don't think I deserve it. He thinks I can just be a mistake. That's why he's scared. And this is why I'm getting tired. He's somebody who's not willing to fight for you. And it just breaks my heart.

A VERY GOOD ESSAY I WROTE BEFORE THAT I CAN STILL RELATE TO.

JUST WHEN YOU THOUGHT YOU’VE LOST YOUR EVERYTHING

{ June 25, 2008 @ 1:04 am } ·

"The problem’s not you.. it’s me. It’s just that we can’t be together anymore."

It’s never easy to just forget something that you have been used to. It’s like your favorite doll being taken away from you when you’re still a little girl. At first, you can’t cope up. You’ll miss its presence and long for it once in a while. Why? Because of one simple reason: you’ve had it for a very long time that it has already become a part of your life. But hey, do you think you’ll just stay on that "i miss my doll" situation until the end of your life? If you think you will, then think again.

Letting go has really become one of the hardest choices a person makes. We can’t just simply let go of what we have in just a snap. It hurts a lot, actually. But still, you can’t even hold on to something that needs to go. It’s the reality of life. Change is the only permanent thing in this world as they say.

Same goes in relationships. There will come a time when suddenly, everything changes. You’d be asking yourself, "what’s the matter with him?" or "what’s going on?". You are absolutely clueless. Yea right, you two are still together. But you feel that there’s something weird going on. You’d ask him about the problem, and as usual, he’ll just say "nothing". Then you think about it and realize that there’s no problem at all. So you’ll ignore it. And you’re back to normal routines.

Days will pass. And without you knowing it, so is your partner. Just when you thought everything is alright, he’ll come up to you and say, "The problem’s not you.. it’s me. It’s just that we can’t be together anymore." You’d be in shock, and start to wonder what went wrong. Random thoughts will run through your mind. Amidst all these, one word stands out : "WHY?". You talk to him and ask about it, but nothing clears it up. Instead, his explanations left deeper questions.

So what happens next? Left into oblivion, you’d tell him that you’ll try to work things out — you’ll plea. But even if you do that, it won’t change the situation and the truth that your relationship with him is over — that he has left you for good.

You can do nothing about it anymore. He has decided, and you just have to respect his decision. Even if it hurts, all you can do is accept what happened and let go. That’s hard, I know. But you have no other choice. And you now have to face your biggest fear of losing him. You can’t hold him back, because you know to yourself that he won’t let you.

After being so used of having him by your side, sending you texts every day and walking you home, you now feel alone and down. You feel incomplete. You feel worthless. You feel that you’ve lost your "everything". Wait, stop on that part. He isn’t your everything, remember? And that’s also the reality. You still have your friends willing to help you get through it. They’re just waiting for you to let them lend a hand. It’s not the end of the world yet. And all you have to do is divert your attention onto something else, make yourself busy, and most importantly, don’t ever blame yourself on what happened. And if you really want to move on, then cut your communications for a couple of months. That’s helpful, I’m telling you. Besides, would you still want to be with someone who has left you for no reason at all? It’s his decision, so let him face it.

Time will pass and you’ll be able to adjust to everything and be back to how you live your life before he has come into it. If you see him, there’s no big deal. Who knows? Maybe, all the experiences you’ve gone through will be enough to make you know what to do next. And remember, just when you thought you’ve lost your everything, there would always be those significant others who will bring you back to reality and make you realize that everything isn’t lost yet — he’s just a passerby who made you into a wiser person you are now.

MY OLD POEMS (FROM A DIARY)

{ October 19, 2008 @ 11:12 pm }

KYOKI

*

Just lost my apetite
I dont want to eat
Tired of crying
I wanna sleep
I wanna sleep and
never wake up again
So when I open my eyes
I’m in heaven
With no problems
No heartaches and pains
Nothing to worry; carefree
I wanna rest; rest forever
Cause I can’t bear this
feeling anymore

-

NOTE: Nasulat ko to matapos uminom ng sangkatutak na gamot noon. Wag ng tanungin kung bakit. hehe. buhay pa naman ako eh. :p

`

BLUE SKY

Looking above, the sky’s so bright
Everything seems to be so right
Look! It’s very wide and clear
You won’t think of anything to fear
`
But I believe it’s not only about what I see
On its brightness and its rare beauty
Still, behind these are some mistery
About the greatness of what it seemed to be
`
Who knows when it will will dim?
Well nobodyelse, but only Him
Floating our lives would always be
With our dreams as bright as what I can see

-

SUNSET
*
As the sun sets, I watch the view
And it suddenly reminded me of you
Thoughts began to run through my mind
Memories I had, I started to bind
`
I reminisced the days that went so fast
When I made myself believe that it’ll last
But no! You’re not here, you went away
You didn’t even tell me you’re not gonna stay
`
And now, the sun slips away like you
For a minute or two, everything will be blue
Still, I know, this won’t be the end
Because tomorrow there’s hope and the sun will shine again.

-

Activity namin yan dati sa English. Assignment. May isa pang kasama yan eh, pero di ko makita.

-

MY BEST FRIEND
*
I won’t forget our days together
Times we shared with laughter and tears
The day we said we’ll be friends forever
A simple promise that no one else hears
-
You’ve become my greatest friend, it’s true
Who listened to every heartaches I cried
In times of despair you would help me through
It’s hard at times, but you always tried
-
I’ll always be thankful that it’s you I’ve met
For you taught me how to really be strong
Our time together isn’t that long yet
But it seems like a lifetime since we get along

-

And obviously, that poem is for my best friends. :)

LOVE REDEFINED

{ October 19, 2008 @ 7:13 pm }

Will you redefine love for me?
Cause I think I’ve lost its meaning
Is it all about being happy
Or just finding yourself crying?
-
When you can’t look him in the eyes
And feels uneasy when he’s around
Or having those consecutive sighs
Is it love that you have found?
-
Not so long ago I know how it feels
Loving somebody wholeheartedly
When he became the reason my heart sings
And being the only man that I seem to see
-
But all those memories slowly faded
When my heart grew tired of being broken
Shattered to pieces, never is it completed
Since the day you left, I can’t remember when
-
And now I don’t know where to find
That four letter word, other than the dictionary
Maybe I need to have love redefined
Tell me, can’t you help me in this journey?

WHAT I WANT

{ October 19, 2008 @ 6:38 pm }

There’s this feeling inside
So different, so new
A feeling i can’t really hide
I want to be near to you
-
With all the stories you tell
You make me wanna listen more
When I talk with you I feel well
I want you standing to my door
-
I’ve just suffered from a love disorder
Then you came to heal my sickness
I’m glad to have you as my doctor
To you my love will be no less.

-
IT’S NOT ME, NOW I SEE

{ October 19, 2008 @ 6:24 pm }

One night, we’re having a conversation
Filled with laughter and happiness
Suddenly, I felt this different emotion
Now I think I’m into a big mess
-
While talking with you, you opened up
About this girl you like so much
Listening made my heartbeat stop
Same name as mine, why is it such?
-
Hearing my name made me blush
Cause I thought you’re referring to me
Then I asked you about your crush
Just to find out it’s not me, now I see
-
My face slowly turned to white
And felt coldness throughout my body
To react against it, I have no right
But how I just hope that instead it’s me.

JUST LIKE YOU

{ October 17, 2008 @ 6:54 am }

I feel so down and gloomy
My tears won’t stop from falling
Don’t you feel a little guilty
For it’s only sadness you bring
-
I’ve been trying my hardest
To do every little thing you tell me
Why don’t you see me at my best
And just accept who I can only be
-
I thought you would understand
The things that I’m going through
I thought you would lend a hand
Not expect me to be just like YOU.


YOU

{ October 16, 2008 @ 11:11 pm } ·

Why can’t I accept the fact,
That I’m just a nobody for you.
You keep pushing me away,
But I always ignore the thing you do.
-
I want to go to the farthest place,
miles and miles away from you.
Instead of hoping that someday,
You could actually love me too.
-
Why do I still think of you,
Though you don’t even care.
Why do I have to fall in love with you,
When all these hurtings, I have to bear.

LIVE

{ October 16, 2008 @ 10:53 pm }

My heart keeps on beating fast
I don’t know when this will last
I can feel my body getting weak
As from my eyes falls a leak
*
I’ve been thinking for so long
When will I finally be strong
To face what lies ahead
Instead of wishing that I was dead
*
Can there be anyone out there
Who can help me breathe more air
Provide everything I need
Just like when I was still a kid
*
Love, care, and understanding
Will you give me those things?
I know it’s not that hard to give
So please I’m begging you, help me live

INCOMPLETE

{ October 16, 2008 @ 9:56 pm }

Why can’t I get you off my mind
Like you’re already a part of it
Can’t there be any other to find
Just to replace your every bit
*
Im getting tired of this scene
That keeps on repeating from time to time
With the same acts being seen
It’s like you and I do not really rhyme

FALLING

{ October 16, 2008 @ 9:54 pm }

Tonight we’re okay
The next day you’re away
How can you leave
When you made me believe
About those things you said
That still run through my head
*
I told you about my fear
Of wanting you to be near
For I knew it from the start
That you’ll only break my heart
And I keep on thinking how
You made me weep like this now
*
You haven’t done any
Yet to me you’ve caused many
Sleepless nights, unending cries
Why do you have to tell those lies?
I wasn’t prepared for what I’m feeling
Shouldn’t you at least gave me a warning?
*
I don’t know where these all started
Or even when will I be mended
But the only thing i know
Is that I have to let you go
‘Cause I can not be admitting
That for you I really am falling

GONE

{ October 16, 2008 @ 9:45 pm }

I keep on smiling
Yet inside I’m hurting
Pretending to be okay
Though I’m having a hard day
Trying my best to erase
Every memory and trace
Of the things you’ve done
Because now you’re gone

FINAL THOUGHTS OF YOU

{ October 16, 2008 @ 9:42 pm }

How can you ignore every tear I shed
When before you said you’d wipe it away
What i feel now slowly turns to hatred
For you cant really do the things you say

Is it me being foolish to hope
That you can still be the one for me
It seems very difficult to cope
You’ve changed from what you used to be

Perhaps now’s the time to finally just let go
And forget about everything we’ve gone through
Maybe tomorrow we’d be fine, I know
And just think that once in my life I had you

MIND RESET

{ October 16, 2008 @ 9:32 pm }

i thought i was over you
and it’s easy to find someone new
maybe i finally should admit
from you i had a really great hit

never did i imagine
that you’ll be whom i’m thinkin’
every morning i wake up
i cant make my mind stop

cant there be another chance
that i may have a dance
to the guy i love the most
a love found, and again lost

i dont know the reason why
there could never be you and I
thoughts crowd my head
what we used to have, now is dead